The Point of Friction

Posted: Friday, October 8, 2010 by Morgan in
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It's been a rough 6 weeks at George Fox for me. I've been struggling to develop relationships, to delve into my engineering studies, to stay connected with friends at Hillsdale, to discern truth from error, to settle into a church. It has been extremely difficult, especially since this summer was so good. It was a very hard summer, but I tasted God's faithfulness almost daily and my spiritual life was thriving. But now, things are hard and it's difficult to see God's hand in anything. I have been striving for moral perfection and maturity, and I realized that it won't do me any good. I have been focusing on sins rather than sin. God won't love me because I am good. Sin is not an action, it's a state of being. We were all born with it and we can't get rid of it through simply avoiding sins (Romans 5:12-13), and even if we were morally perfect, we would still owe our lives to God. Instead, God provided a perfect high priest to atone for our state of sin: Jesus Christ and His death and resurrection (Hebrews 10:12-14).


We are not sinful because we sin, we sin because we are sinful. Conversely, we are not made righteous because we do good, but we do good because we have been made righteous through Christ.

I realized something like that this morning. I realized that I was sinful, prideful, selfish, weak, and impatient and that I couldn't do anything to change that. So, I went for a drive. I drove out to the Newberg countryside, parked on the side of a gravel road, and sat in God's creation, looking for answers. I didn't find anything except vast plainlands, wire fences, clouds, smoke from burnpiles, and brown grass. God seemed silent. I stayed there awhile and then gave up and went home. I was discouraged.

It wasn't until later (a few minutes ago, actually) that the answer came. I picked up My Utmost for His Highest by Oswald Chambers and read the entry for October 2nd. It was called "The Place of Humiliation," and it went a little like this:

After every time of exaltation we are brought down with a sudden rush into things as they are where it is neither beautiful nor poetic nor thrilling. The height of the mountain top is measured by the drab drudgery of the valley; but it is in the valley that we have to live for the glory of God. We see His glory on the mount, but we never live for His glory there. It is in the sphere of humiliation that we find our true worth to God, that is where our faithfulness is revealed. Most of us can do things if we are always at the heroic pitch because of the natural selfishness of our hearts, but God wants us at the drab commonplace pitch, where we live in the valley according to our personal relationship to Him. Peter thought it would be a fine thing for them to remain on the mount, but Jesus Christ took the disciples down from the mount into the valley, the place where the meaning of the vision is explained."If Thou canst do any thing..."

It takes the valley of humiliation to root the scepticism out of us. Look back at your own experience, and you will find that until you learned Who Jesus was, you were a cunning skeptic about His power. When you were on the mount, you could believe anything, but what about the time when you were up against facts in the valley? You may be able to give a testimony to sanctification, but what about the thing that is a humiliation to you just now? The last time you were on the mount with God, you saw that all power in heaven and in earth belonged to Jesus - will you be skeptical now in the valley of humiliation?

It all became very clear. God answered my cry for help. The place I am at right now is the valley of humiliation. This is the place where real life is lived. This is where my trust in Him is tested. This is where the rubber meets the road. This, ladies and gentlemen, is the point of friction.

There's no telling how long this point will last. Will it be a day? A couple weeks? Three years? A lifetime? Will I continue to trust God in the midst of the valley of humiliation? I must. The only alternative is to trust in myself, and I've seen where that leads. I have no choice. It's more difficult than it sounds, and it's going to be a long road, but I know God is with me even if I can't see Him all the time.

"Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make straight your paths." Proverbs 3:5-6

1 comments:

  1. Anonymous says:

    Morgan, thanks so much for this. It was a tremendous encouragement, especially at this particular point in the semester. Keep it up. --Crystal