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Posted: Tuesday, December 6, 2011 by Morgan in
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What is it about us that makes us want to stand out from the crowd, to be different (in a good way), to be better, to have what others don't have, to be what others can't be.


And then what is it about us that makes us bitter toward the people who do stand out from the crowd, who are different, who are better, who have what we don't have, who are who we can't be?

I think the answer is pride. C.S. Lewis says this about the issue: "Pride gets no pleasure out of having something, only out of having more of it than the next man...It is the comparison that makes you proud: the pleasure of being above the rest." I think he's right. And I think the comparative and competitive nature of pride is what also makes us despise those who are better or nicer or richer or smarter than us.

I was talking with a friend the type of people for whom I have no respect, and after I thought about it for a while, I realized that the things I did not like about these people were the very things I wanted to be. It hit me like a freight train. I was revolted by the gross hypocrisy I was committing. I don't know how to change my desires, but I know that they need to change. I am judgmental and two-faced and treacherous beyond hope. Only God can fix me, but it seems that he is refusing to do so.

That's where faith comes in. There must be a connection between belief and action and between faith and works. I think faith is that connection. "So now faith, hope, and love abide, these three; but the greatest of these is love." I don't understand any of those virtues. But I know the truth about God. I know that doesn't change. I know He changes people. I know He loves me. I know Christ died for me.

I know I know I know

I KNOW I KNOW I FREAKING KNOW.

I'M DOING THE THINGS I'M SUPPOSED TO DO! WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT FROM ME?

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1 comments:

  1. Toni says:
    December 7, 2011 at 12:04 AM

    This topic is very near and dear to me.